advent one: hope

Poem for Selah’s first Advent from Gigi:

Where
Will
Jesus
Be born
This year?
Not on a pretty hill
Far away
Not in a gleaming
Sanctuary
Barricaded
Against
Our neighbors
Not in
Lessons and carols
By rote
In a baby’s exploring
Fingers
Caressing a star
In a father’s voice:
The star
Represents
Jesus
A lower room
A cold water flat
The open air
Warmed by animal
Flesh in the hospitality
Of the
Poorest
The dying
Playing music
The violin
To comfort caregivers

In the human heart

Get your heart ready
It has to break
To
Receive
Him
Again
For the first
Time
In a baby’s
Curious
Wonder
In the dawning question
In her
New and
Love-Gifted
Eyes

The Beauty and Power of Naming

My daughter, Eupha Jeanne, was born in a Boston snowstorm February 3, 1990. At the time I was finishing up my M.Div. degree at Harvard Divinity School. For various reasons I had delayed completing my language work. I found myself growing linguistic knowledge of both Hebrew and Greek, and growing a human being at the very same time. I found Greek difficult; at times I despaired. My Greek Professor was also the head librarian at the Episcopal Divinity School in Cambridge;  his kindness and support will never be forgotten. I remember calling him to tell him of her birth, upon hearing her name, he bellowed: “that’s Greek!” Eupha Jeanne was named for her two grandmothers, neither being  at all of Greek extraction. Her name is a derivative of the river “Euphrates” –considering the family name of Jordan, together with the Irish “Kenneally” family contributing Jean, and then added to the mix the married  name “Niles” — if anything, I took my daughter’s name to be the mark of ancient sacred waters. Her name a melding and merging of races, cultures, and lands.

Dr. Dunkley kept insisting her name had Greek meaning. What do you he meant?  “Well,”he said: “I think it means….” What do you suppose he said? All will be revealed, my fellow linguists, in due course.

Three months ago, my daughter and her wonderful husband, AndrewAyodeji, blessed us with our first grandchild, a daughter. Born on the verge of lockdowns, all four grandparents were  nevertheless able to gather for the traditional Yoruban naming ceremony held on the eighth day of her life. In the ceremony her names were revealed, for the first time, to about twenty dear church friends gathered to celebrate and feast on ancestry and hope with sides of Jollof rice, puff puff , chicken, beef, plantain, and salads.  And, of course, cake. Her name:  Selah Orinoluwa. Which, her parents shared, means “pause and reflect on the song of the Lord.” There were about ten other names given her by her elders that day in honor of qualities of character, or of the ancestors. It was a rich and emotional celebration honoring language and naming as having power in all our lives. But back to Eupha Jeanne:

I  might have turned to my child, as she named her babe, and said: “Just what I might expect from the girl whose name means “Well Spoken” in Greek.”  (At least, according to dear Dr. Dunkley.)

 P.S. Dr. Dunkley surprised me again: the  final exam was open book and untimed, held in his beloved library. And so, my fellow linguists, I passed the test. And, I am quite sure, so shall you. 

 —-A Rose by any other name.

What Shall I Bring

What shall I bring

you

beloved

for all your knowing

for all our journeying

we circumnavigate source

having given and taken

sipped sweetly

and devoured

learned, finally

to wait for the offering

to alight

in trembling hand

what can I bring you

sweet

beloved

crown you with orchids

drape you in lilies

seat you on a lotus throne

we, who were girls together

once

bring you love and

witness

wisdom and beauty

become you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the fear of old hatred

I find myself unafraid of the new

Unexpected discontinuity wows me 

Peculiarly

Unafraid 

Even when disoriented

Or overwhelmed with whirl and rush

Oddness feels full with pregnant hoping

New traditions stretch me

Words in languages I don’t know play in my mouth

I take chances well

Trust my fellow leapers to help me weave the air we navigate with streams of laughter

Tears of delight

Flights of tentative joy

No. It is the old petty hatreds

So small and terrified

That frighten me

Just like the old boogie monsters of my childhood

Exactly like them

I intend to consign these imposters of

Hate

To the scattered ash heap 

Yesterday 

Has no power

I don’t give away

Today

We vote at the behest
Of ancestors who dreamed
Woke up
Put on their traveling suits
To freedom
We are further along
Than it may seem
Change you see is discontinuous
Jagged
Stop and go
So you weary traveler
You ‘buked and scorned brave girl
You sons in Lazarus entombment
have to put on the traveling suit
Of courage
And ride children
Ride

An alignment
Of celestial bodies
Over ancient pyramids
That
Only happens every
Two thousand and some
Three hundred and seventy three years
Happened yesterday
Did it fill the mind sky to remind us
How small we really are
Or to harbinger be
Of evolution
Resurrected
For myriad generations
Aborning